2011-11-26. Lord I have been a sinner...It has been a while since I have spoken here, but then again there has not been much to talk about. The world has have stopped from spinning anyway. The world has been altered a bit, the downfall of dictatureships in various countries in North Africa. Even the Khadaffi finally after some 42 or so years got to bite the dust. Ironicly, after calling his fellow country men and women for sewer rats, he indeed was shot in a sewer. Since that the new forces has emerged and appearently there has been blood baths on followers to Khadaffi. The question is, how to turn these countries in to a democracy? After all they have been under a leadership that has been hard on any opposition. I guess is that this will be the gold digging time for various gold diggers, who find a way to seize power. By the way we here in west seem to have expected that they adopt our view on democracy, where the previous blocks of red radical left and the conservative blue has mixed in strange kind of purple. In speaches you are able to hint some of the earlier shades of colors, but in action there is only very marginal difference in the shade. I guess the only thing that matters is that we are able to get a steady flow of the black gold, the oil.It will be interesting to see the colors on the new found democracy as they not do not to have to inheritate ours. after all cultural background and religions will be a major players which is not a suprise in countries where some of the population is not having the living standard and education as we have here in this "civilized" west. The west is in deep troble, as the free enterpricing seem to have its problems which the public is remind of every decade, called creed. Creed for excessive money, life style and economical and political power. As long it works out, they shout out about the benefits the system has, but every now and then they come and beg for the taxpayers money, not only once. But over and over again. Some of them get jailed, but they are soon replaced by another mogul who very soon picks up the same paice untill it fails. I guess we never learn... Now it seems that entire countries are in the verge of bankrupcy, Iceland, Greece, and rumoured to be, Ireland Spain, Portugal, Italy and at times even the mighty USA. All while China is getting stronger. I guess the creed for money finds it OK with China which is not democratic and as I read somewhere have a million people jailed because their political views not entire is the same with the goverments. What will happen to China when people start to rally for better democracy or heaven forbid, a paid vacation?, better conditions at their work, 40 hour labour and sallaries that enable them to have a vacation abroad or a house and a pretty new prestigious car parked on their drive way? Where next? India?, which is on the move, Brazil? Africa once the companies are asured on stable political foundations without riots, genocides, or civil wars along with no regulations and cheap work force. Since last year I have been writing a few novels in Swedish. There are five of them each a little different ranging from a sweet story from a 5-year olds Christmas to a guy who is a monster who attacks women in a medium sized city. It is kind of fun. One thing I have not have tried on is writing a funny nonsence story with a loads of irony. I am right now cooking up a base on the story which hopefully be hillarious... Untill next time! Late winter ramblings.I am at work, hungry like a wolf. The air condition has gone nuts and it is like a sauna in here. Got a Birthday tomorrow, no worries, as pay day is on friday. It is a quiet moment before the storm to unfold on Friday. I bought books for over ten grand (in cronors) and I get the delivery on Friday. On Friday the Wasa Ski run festival is on and my B-day party is on saturday. On Sunday it is the 15. anniversary of moving to Dalecarlia from the busy Stockholm. Time runs...It is still very much winter here, according the broadcast the first spring like conditions will be this weekend. We got a plenty of snow, some 70 cm deep so hopefully the snow melting will be short enough, if not we get floods, and floods mean damp grounds, and which result in loads of hungry mosquitos. But I like the idea of spring as it will be alot easier to be mobile. This, because the roads are in bad shape and the peak of all it is now during the Wasa SKi Run, when the roads are invaded by hundreds of busses, cars etc and roads are either closed or glogged by all these vehicles. It is a peak for the businesses over here and the downtown business street is crowded with people. But once it is over, spring is here. I have continued to work out and I am happy to report that I still make progress, and loads of it and I am becoming a pretty strong guy now. Luckily enough except for a week of back trouble I have been OK. Gary Moore R.I.PGary Moore was one of the main reasons why I started to play guitar. The first song I learned to play was the "Loner" way back and I saw him on stage twice. The first time was during Black Rose tour with Thin Lizzie where he replaced Brian Robetson. Needless to say that his playing added alot to the Lizzie and by far though Lizzie rocked, the concert with Gary topped them all.The second time around was his first tour after Phil passed away during his Wild Frontier tour. By then Gary was what Eddie was in the States, the ultimate guitar god. Garys playing included so much elements from different styles which he melted to sound of his own. Most noteable was that he could hit that note, which we guitar players are allways searching for. Just listen to the solo on Empty Rooms from the concert I saw back in 1987, it is so soulful, emotional that could make anyone cry. After awhile he turned in to blues giving it by his powerful playing style the kick it sometimes needed. Last year he made an appearence on the Sweden Rock festival with his hard rock/metal set, I was planning going there but missed as my sis came to visit. Now I regret it, it would be have been nice to hear songs like, Over The Hills and Far Away, Out in The Fields, Empty Room once again by the master. Now after work and gym I will pick up my guitar and relearn "loner" once again! Rest in peace Gry, You are truely missed! March.... and snow...It is amaizing that the snow I love in December becomes something I loathe in March. It is the very last days o March 2010 and we still got a plenty of snow, and it was falling more of in this morning when I drove to work. As there has been a plenty of snow this winter, it is OK that the snow is melting slowly but somewhere deep in my mind I love to see the scenery without the snow. After all it is Easter this week, and having a plenty of snow feels a little odd. Lately I have had flue, twice and it has weakened me out a bit. It is odd considering I work out some 8 hours aweek. But thanks to this I have not been working out in 2 weeks and I am looking forward to this Thursday as I am able to go back to the gym, I have really missed it.The cold and snowy winter does have an isoltating effect, which makes me restless. So this weekend neverminding the weather, I drove off with my camera to eastern parts of the country, closer to the coast line along with my camera only to find the area was in deep fog, fired away just two shots in the town of Ljusdal some 125 kilometers or so to east, northwest. But the drive to a neighbouring city of Bollnäs was just lovely and I closed a gap on driving that highway. It is called Tidens Väg, The Road Of the Time in English, and in many ways it is just that, a road to history and a time machine to Sweden as it was few decades ago. While thinking back on the trips along this high way, I came to think about the scenery, the rivers, forrests and the adjoying Northern Main line which before the increasing numbers of cars and trucks was the life line of the Nortern Sweden. Still the line sees a lot of heavy trains but in a Saturday afternnon it was all quiet. I plan to take one weekend to drive the entire high way this summer. Taking a loads of stop along it I guess it will be a cool weeknd. It starts at Ockelbo and as far I know ends at Ånge in north. I guess in all some 300-400 kilometer drive. Hope we get more decent weather this summer.... Untill next time! 2010-02-24. At 50. That is me 50 years ago Today is the day, the magic digit, the 50.th birthday. That is a respectable age, the age when you turn old. it does feel unreal, as I am not feeling 50, but I don't really know what age I am supposed to be. If I had kids, I might sence it as I guess if I started with kids at the same age as my parents, well at least my dad was 28 when I popped out. They will be adults, and I know people at my age and even old classmates who are grand dads. Well the digit 50 does scare me abit, have I misspent my years? Have I done things right or wrong? Who am I? What is next? There will be bit of a party this weekend, if you happend to be in Mora Sweden this weekend. Just drop by at the Vasa Ski Run tent at 20.00 local time and join for a meal... I guess I will having a little cake today, more is to come in the weekend. I don't need no presents, I am just fine. Looking on life I have had great times and some bad times. And about the family thing, yes it would have been cool to have one, but I still haven't found anyone I felt like "Wow! She is it, I love to sit in that rocking chair on porch, looking at our grand kids as they play and feel so proud..." Most of the women I met have had issues, and I have not felt secure enough to make a family with. I have been blessed, with parents who never broke up and seeing some situations with some friends when I grew up, I did not want to get a family, unless the fountation to it was concrete solid. No dicorses unless the kids are grown up. I know these things are hard to keep up, but raising kids are the responsible of their parents... I guess.... Anyways ithas been a pretty nice trip and there is still a plenty of gas in the tank.... Untill next time! 2010-02-19. Snow, snow and more snow...There is to be a blizzard this week, some perhaps 30-60 cm.s of snow, that is 2 feet in a couple of days! The media has been all over it, papers, TV.... No one is to miss it. That is about the same amount of snow we have right now. I guess there will be some troubles with everything. Roads are to be blocked, the snow clearing crew will have a battle. I guess the train traffic will be in huge problems, not mentioning the air ports... As some of the electric lines are still old fashioned, a string on poles and fragile to the elements, there will be a number of houses without juice, and in many cases in houses built in 1960-1980.s no heating. Besides that, it is to be cold, some minus 5 - 20 degrees C or more depending how far up in north you live. Is this something created by the global warming or some whimsy mood of the weather? I don't know, but it will not be that nice... A winter scape view not far away from my home, shot in January 2007, at Lisselhed, Orsa. So far we have had a cold winter, the coldest in years and though we are nearing the end of February there is no signs of spring. This worries me a bit as we have a plent of snow and even much more in the highlands, if the spring will be sudden, we might get flooded here. Last year was a close call, with a rather late spring and the flood was just about december away. If we get flooded, we get a shitload of mosquitos. I really hate them. This weekend I was planning on shooting photos on farm houses in the neighbouring county and perhaps grab a burger, and having a nice day. But lately we have had either very cold, or a plenty of snow coming down from the sky during the weekends that has effectively prevented any decent photo trips. Too bad as I have shooting only a fraction numbers of photos I have done before. And it is nice to get off fromthe neighbour hoods once in a while. But then again there are the Olympic Games going on on TV... I do love olympics, but because the working out I have not been that close to follow it. I have seen some of the races, mostly x-ski races and bialthon. I have also seen some fraction of the hockey. I consider the mens hockey quite open with at least 5 can win the tournament while on the womens it is pretty clear, Canadians visa USA on finals, Finns and Swedes battling over the bronze... But in all it is nice to see athelites from odd countries and new names winning medals. And be able to see sports I hardly see on Television... Untill next time! 2010-02-15. Just an other Tuesday!This winter has been the coldest in ages, weeks after weeks with tmeperatures down to minus 18 degrees Cor even more, sometimes down to minus 30 C is pretty hard. Feeling of no matter heating you feel chilled to the bones is hard on everybody. Flues are requently not mentioning sore throughts, but at least I have felt so tired all the time. I could, if i would sleep arund the clock. Such a strange phenomina! Today we have a decent day, just around minus 8 - 10 degrees, a little fog that barely hides the sun, yet enough to create extra layers of frost. In other words pretty decent weather for this time of year.February is the last traditional weekof winter, today when I drove off to work, the sun was allready up and at evening it is still barely up. It is also the month of Vasa Ski Run and at the end of teh month my birthday. This year it will be my 50.th birthday and frankly, it does scare me a bit. Mostly because time has been running fast the last decades and I may look like I was of my age, but hell no, I don't feel like being that age. 50 year old, you are pretty old at 50. I have been aware of in decades my prime time is a thing of yesterday and that in future I will not only get older, but my health situation and just everything is slowly getting to worse. Besides having diabetes might speed it up a bit, while I guess my work out at gym does slow it a little bit, but it is unstopable, after all that is the nature, we will get old one day. I am in great shape though, I work hardeer than ever before, though it is nothing to do with fear of aging or anything. I just love doing it, and it makes me feel healthy. In other words, no rust, no dents and plenty of gas in the gas tank, and the radio is on, rockin' all over this world... So what are the plans for the half century thing? Nothing much, really, mostly I am not in to big parties, well you plan them more you can shove it... Presents? Nahh... I don't really need anything, well if you happend to have a yacht, or a high ended priced new car to spare, send it my way. After all after 02.24.2010, life goes on... Untill next time! 2009-12-11. Friday, Lucia and hopefully some snowFriday, love it. I a bit more cold than what it has been lately. A firend of mine called from Falun and over there is snow falling... It is just around lunch here, though there is not much clouds, it is like a sunrise. The sun does not go really high up in the sky now, in short we have some 3 hours of sunrise, followed with 3 or so hours of sunset. After it darkness again. Here in Sweden the celebration of Lucia or St. Lucy is abig thing so this morning the workday started there. The school quire ran the show, with traditional white cloths, live candles... Much more innocent than how the night is celebrated, with a lot of booze, just as it was back in my days. St. Lucy was appearently a peaceful lady, but never the less the celebration has become another excuse for alcohole. At least for the teenagers, though there is an a drug free alternative, a rock show with two acts that are nationally popular with the kids in a small hockey arena.The kids grades are all set, the final tests of the season is behind us. Some faces turned to smile when their grades where confirmed, some the opposite. Mostly because school work does not exite them and bad results results in bad grades. It is a hard truth that at age of 15 or 16, much of your future life is set here. This is while they are still kids, and the harsh reality of adulthood is something, theorical. They are bad at planning ahead, I guess I was the ame and what is happening few months ahead is very abstract. Still got 15 minutes to lunch, a quick calculation that is 900 secs or so, OK 890 secs now.. I am to raid the community hall to be able to get more terminals to the computer class room. These terminals are stripped down older computer getting a new lease of life before becoming junk. These older computers make alot of junk, not mentioned those all old buky screens. I once visited a basemant in the junior high school, where the floors were filled with old monitors... That was years ago, I guess now as the second, third, fourth and fifth generations of PC.s and Mac.s have just a junk value there has to be loads of them in basements. Funnny that something that was high tech, few years ago is nothing more than junk today. Still got 9 minutes to go, some 540 secs, and at the horizon there are clouds rising, hopefully we are getting some snow. Plans for the day? After work, have my car washed, go to the gym, chill out. Tomorrow it is the adiõs to my old trusty old Volvo which has been sitting on the same spot for an year... I have mixed feelings about it, it was a nice car, but has cost a fortune in form of new replacement engine and new tranny. I had an idea of making it as a summer car but then again the list of things to fix is pretty long... Perhaps I will be browsing for another one, of a newer vintage.... Untill next time! 2009-12-07. Revelations...It is a Monday again, a another dull gray day, I guess the 2009 must have been a record breaking with rain and gray skies. We had a little snow during the weekend, which naturally vanished in the rain yesterday. It seems like it is still undecided whether we have an extended fall or if we are to have a winter at all. The weekend was nice, with hockey on friday night when the local team won again, the sixth in a row... Followed with a little Christmas shopping and the independence day of Finland yesterday.it is kind of funny how certain things becomes a habit or becomes a bit part you. When I was working on the Silja Line cruise ferries on the Baltic Sea, during the 6. December the Finnish national television allways showed the movie "Unknown Soldier (Tuntematon Sotilas) after a book by Väinö Linna. I managaed to finish the book just before I once again resaw the movie. The novel must have been a tough thing to deal with for some members of the finnish defence during the 1950.s and even in the film, which have taken some liberties by omitting few of persons in the novel, the rather liberal use of language makes the film still rather modern to watch today. There has been a remake which I think did not make it, but then again I recently read the book... It is hard for us really to relate to the hardships the people like the generation my grand parents and also my parents have to go through during the war and the post war years. I do remember in my early years that my parents did not have a dance on roses to make it with low sallaries, shit load of tedious jobs and sometimes Mr. Ebenizer Scrooge kind of bosses. Unlike most couples today, they did not break up or divorse, but kept on fighting, getting their goals in life. Right now I am reading another historical piece, a book by a Finnish high executive in the Finnish Communist Party, where he describes his time in Soviet Union, right after the take over by Stalin. Haven't read more than some 20 pages, but it is kind of interesting to read about the leadership living a high life while the population is starving. I guess that the things went astray allready there... I have allways been facinated by modern history, let's say from 1850 to modern times, when the industrial developement started to roll more seriously. I guess past that date the world has been changing alot. Looking back even to some 20 or so years ago, life has changed. Mobile telephones where bulky and hugely expensive to own nd to operate, VHS-recorders were the thing of the day, I guess today noone hardly use them at all today. And what to do with those bulky VHS-cassettes? I am still looking for a car stereo for my car. I want one that uses USB-sticks as it is by far superiour to CD-s and audio-cassetes and as those sticks come up in 16 gigs now, they can store whole lot of music that will entertain me while driving. I guess within a few handful years that technology is all gone too... Untill next time! 2009-12-03. Frosty start on DecemberThe winter is here, though no snow yet. But with temperatues down to minus 13 it is not exactly season to bum around on a beach. The change came over night though we are still waiting for the snow. But still it looks beautiful with snow capped mountains, frozen lake and frosted surface in the valleys. It reminds me of something when I was a five year old with my mother on the way to a kindergarden very early in the morning during cold dark mornings. I thought that the sparkling in the snow were stars that had been fallen of the sky, so I picked some and tried to throw the powdered snow back to the sky. My mum on the the other hand was not that exited about the idea as most of the snow landed on her. I never got around to tell her what I was doing...Isn't it funny how some memories stick in your mind? When I was seven or eight, home from school because a flu or something. I guess I had been watching cartoons day before or something. It was raining but after a while it appeared few snowflakes mixed in the rain. Not too long the snowflakes took over and soon after that the snow started slowly cover the ground. All the snow and the frost makes wonders around here this time of year, and I love the effect of Christmas lights reflecting in snow. Walt Disney would not have done it better.. This Sunday is the date for the Finnish independency, and once again I will look at an old Finnish movie named Unknown Soldier. It is based on a novell by Väinö Linna who made a serie of books and this might be his finest. It is about a group of soldiers from thre training to the end of the fightings and it is a very different war story. There is no Hollywood hero making the day, but a lots about fear, agony, hunger, cold nights and very colorful describition of the men. They came from different parts of the country and were jut ordinary people from small farms, factrory workers, some hobos and lumber jacks. Some are hero like, some are opposite. Some good, some not but all with a wish to get back home alive. Finland was by then a pretty poor and marked from the previous wars. First a bloody civil war in 1918 and the winter war agaisnt Sovjets in 1939. I guess most of my generation have some relatives who has seen the war, at the front or at home. A reality far from today. Untill next time! 2009-11-23. Gray, gray gray!Monday morning again, it is a dull, dark and uninspireing morning yet again. The absence of snow is dragging people down and it is a pretty much hard to smile about it. Yesterday was an opening of the Christmas season in my town in heavy rain and though the shop owners and the community had placed candles every 3 or so meters on the main street all the way from the intersection from the highway, it was not really a Christmas feeling about it. Naturally in rain there were not many people out either. I paid a vist to the mall to check any inspiration for the coming holiday, but though the clever displays it all felt alittle plastic. So I got home with a little chocolate bars for the dreaded monday. Though I ought to get to used to them I don't like Mondays, no matter if I am at waork or at home, Mondays suck!The weekend was OK, I had a mini workout on Saturday, after a slow start. I did a few sets of benchpressing and did some on shoulders, after that game of hockey, which the local team won in a sudden death and then home in my car watching while the raindrops hit the wind shield. The work out is great and I do now it 4 and half days a week and I feel that it has made loads of difference, some of them is getting visible. It is a proof that in my age, you still can make a chnge and get stronger and more healthy. But still Mondays suck! This week is the time of year whne the chsristmas season really shifts the gear and all the decorations are in placed and plugged in. On Sunday is the grand opening in the neighbouring town where the main street is being transformed to a Christmas street, hope we get some snow by then. The change is most welcome as the November is hard and any changes are welcome. One of the side effects is that I am thinking of some changes again, perhaps moving out from here doing something else. But what and where? I really am jeallous of people who can drop everything, sell it off on E-Bay or whereever and start with something else. I wish I had that instead going "safe" with my life. But in 2010 I am planning a few changes before I get a feeling all of this is just another day in Groundhog Day movie... Plans for the day? lunch at 12.30 and after work have a work out.... Untill next time! 2009-11-20. X-mas season is here!When I drove to work this morning it was one of those mornings I should brought a camera and not have to be in time at work. Appearently there has been a slight snowfall, light enough to turn the peaks of the shallow mountains in white but the rest of them and valleys still in the late fall brown shades. This made the mountains look a lot higher and the deforreste areas jump out in blue tinted white. I guess in these conditions even a cut looks nice, though from the long distance. The area is very beautiful and yes, I am very blessed for living here!The kids at school are getting close to the period of time when there are alot of tests. So everyone looks concentrated and tensed. The ninth graders are having it perhaps the toughest time of the all, as these test will be the result on their final grades. After all they are to go to the next step of their education, to the junior high schools. Sometime early this fall they realize that the Junior High School will mark the end of their old classes and some of their calls mates they may never see again. But the Junior High will do them good, I think that the high school and added responsibility will do them good. After all it is their next step to adulthood... Last weekend was fathers Day and as usual I took my folks to a shopping centre for the traditional first Christmas shopping. I think it was a nice break to do the trip though November as such is not entirely inspirering. I bought a couple off large glass balls with LED lights as Cristmas decoration. More stuff will follow them a bit later... Untill next time! 2009-11-11. Winter?When I drove to work this morning it was one of those mornings I should brought a camera and not have to be in time at work. Appearently there has been a slight snowfall, light enough to turn the peaks of the shallow mountains in white but the rest of them and valleys still in the late fall brown shades. This made the mountains look a lot higher and the deforreste areas jump out in blue tinted white. I guess in these conditions even a cut looks nice, though from the long distance. The area is very beautiful and yes, I am very blessed for living here!The kids at school are getting close to the period of time when there are alot of tests. So everyone looks concentrated and tensed. The ninth graders are having it perhaps the toughest time of the all, as these test will be the result on their final grades. After all they are to go to the next step of their education, to the junior high schools. Sometime early this fall they realize that the Junior High Schol will mark the end of their old classes and some of their calls mates they may never see again. But the Junior High will do them good, I think that the high school and added responsibility will do them good. After all it is their next step to adulthood... Last weekend was fathers Day and as usual I took my folks to a shopping centre for the traditional first Christmas shopping. I think it was a nice break to do the trip though November as such is not entirely inspirering. I bought a couple off large glass balls with LED lights as Cristmas decoration. More stuff will follow them a bit later... Untill next time! 2009-10-13. November....Man I utterly hate Novembers.. and now it is here again... Cold, humid, dark and sterile. Who is perverted enough in my hemisphere to love it? It is dark when I go to work and it as dark when I get home. The nature seem lifeless, silent and if there is no wild, it resembles a still photography. Add some 100 per cent chance to get a flu, that is the whole picture. November....The kids are back at school after mid term leave and the school is back alive. The week when the school was empty and very silent. It is nice to have the school back alive. I had a few things to catch on, like do some upgrading in hardware. Besides that I am back at gym, working out as hard as before. I had a catch of flu again a couple of weekends ago, and I had to take some night off from the gym. The gym has become pretty important for me. Love to work out, and it makes me feel good... I do it 4 times a week and I guess the average session takes 2 hours.. It is cool that at my age I can actually improve there as after all I will be turning 50 in few months. As I have diabetes, it keeps the medication down. I feel as good but stronger than ever before. I do have a plan that I during 2010, will be able to bench press 125 kilos... I am nt there by close, but I will start to do bench pressing soon. I guess I am in the neighbourhood to press 100 kilos.. But I count on making progress pretty soon after I get use to it. My body is used to heavy pounding now. Right now I see no problems, and I love mind game involved with it.. Some people claims that smart people do brain gymanstics by reading, but be pursuade yourself out of your own frame, thinking out of box is exactly that. As there are limits howm much you can able to lift, work out, it is a question of moving yor inner borders a bit. Besides you are most likely are to have a better health, compared to sitting in your sofa at home is another advantage. Naturaly what I do is nor working for everyone, you have to fid your own way, aslong you get your ass of off that chair, take a walk out doors 30 minutes or more and it will make a difference, just do it and you can feel it... Over here the Christmass season is closing in. I guess the early start has to do with the introduction of the ango.american version of halloween. OK we have taken the part of getting sloshed as aroutine, whgich is pretty much what we generally do with every holidays now adays. Though kids in kindergardens, and some of grown ups do the witch parts but in all, it has not been a commercial success. There are much more Christmas relative stuff on the shelves at stores, malls or whatever. This starts now adays inlater half of October and we customeers have plaenty of time to buy all these lights, plastic, yet detailed santas and all kinds of glistering red decorations... And we have at least 2 or 3 sallaries to spend to these... Here there are preparations of turning the commercial streets to Christmas streets are allready underway. But the juice is turned on last Friday this month and on the last Sunday, which happens to be the First of Advents, the Christmas season is officially here. The week before this, the mall area east of town has its own season opening... That is just two or three weeks away.... Hard to believe it right now... Untill next time! 2009-10-12. Fall....Monday again... Back at work again.. I have had a two weeks of late vacation. Spend a few days in Norway, which greeted med with early snowfall just one kilometer from the Swedish border. It was lovely to see the snow flakes dancing their way to the ground but it was indeed too early, way too early.. It kept on snowing daily while I was there nothing severe except the last 20 kilometers on my way home. I had an idea of sleeping one night at the camping site in Otta which was roughly half way to Bergen. But as I did not think of this snow thing, I had my summer tires on and had to ditch the plans. On my way to Otta i had to pass the summit at Dovre Mountains a bit over 1000 meters and things was pretty rough there. In order to short cut to Bergen I had to drive another mountain pass with summit well over 1400 meters and I believed the conditions would be even worse. So it was for plan B...Luckily I drove the first night among the mountains of Rondane which I have had no success of photographing as I always tried to shoot them from their western slopes, not knowing I would get the lot from a sightseeing parking next the highway 27 from the east. So I decided to go for it the following day and shoot it in sundown, which I did and the 90 or so kilometer of the road was breathtaking and while I was there, no snowfall, the conditions were exellent with enough snow on the ground to add extra texture and make the mountians in the background look like giant sugar topped muffins. In other words a great day. The last day I decided to go north to Trondheim, grab that burger at the south centerof the city which is a huge mall and drive south west followin the coast to Kristiansand. But the weather after the burger break got worse and a few pay stations there were a number of road construction sites with long lines of waiting cars to pass the sight. In other words once agian I had to ditch the plans. The following day there were a blizzard expected so I started early and the straigth way along the valleys home. Still it took 10 hours to drive 430 kilometers... Right now here at home we are in the point where the second part of fall is coming. The high light of fall colors are fading away in to fallen dry brown leaves. Last Tuesday we even had a little snow, just for a few hours before it turned in to slosh and eventually rained away. It is sort of amaizing to see this battle between fall and the coming winter and how the nature reacts on the changed conditions. Once the fall color season is over, strong wind is blowing the leaves of the trees, to loosen them of the branches, there are cold nights. Once there is a bit of snow in the air, tall grans bows like pleasnets front of their king. In short it is amaizing. Right now, frozen ponds in the morning are now a norm. More will freeze over, the bay will be next and when it is completeted, the permanet snow is underway.... Untill next time! 2009-09-24. Quiet....Thursday, we had the first night of frost for this fall, but there is many yet to come. At my way to work I could not stop watching the beautiful color of the sky as the sun got up in the mist. As ususal, time was too short for a stop, but then again there are mornings yet to come. I plan to get up early on Saturday to try to catch the wonder. I do live in a very scenic area...I am dead tired today, was working on a hockey game and deliver photos from the match, our home team lost a tight game which was not so photo friendly. It was the first loss in the season but then again there is loads of games yet to come, many more wins and at least a few losses. I got home around 23.00 and after downoading my photos, it was time to go to bed. Plans today is to sort few things out at work, prepare for my 2 week leave. Hide some things away so I will have my stock of accesories and parts intact when I return... a lunch and after work, head for the gym.... Speaking of it, I am still having alittle trouble as my right knee is a little strained, guess I did overdo my leg pressing. I went from doing 15 repetitions in 5 set from 180 kilos to 300 during the summer.... Now last Tuesday I tried my knee and it was strange as I felt nothing from the weight but a little extra strain on my knee... Lesson learned, I need a knee protection. But slowly I am gaining the strength back and today I am actually looking forvard to the gym. The chest and arms is the idea of doing today, in genral I love the gym and it has done loads for me. I got stronger and more fit, still there is yet to do. But I am not in a hurry, got a the rest of my life ahead, in other words loads of time. Outside, the weather has changed once again, now it is raining... Untill next time! 2009-09-23. Mid weekFeeling pretty good, it is a Wednesday and sunny enough, a bit windy and I guess those windows needs a wash. Got a long day ahead, first work and then a hockey later in the evening. Brought my camera along, and I many shoot something at lunch before coming back to work for an hour, before going to my medical check out with my doctor. I am in pretty good shape, though I am not in my peak the flu the other week is still affecting me. But not as severe as it did in january, back then it was as it appears a pretty serious.As I mentioned earlier, I got a vacation coming on next week and it feels pretty good. The idea is to go to the Norwegian west coast to take some fall shots and the planned trip will take me from Bergen to Åndalsnes. This will be just for a few nights but I hope I come home with loads of photos, hopefully some of them are great. My Norwegian site has not been updated for a quite a while but I hope I will catch up with it soon. Perhaps a major upgrading of it will be done but then again I like the idea of it as it is. But it would be cool to start to transform it in to a virtual guide or a trip on www. I love the area which I am showing to you in greater detail and the build up of it is soon 10 years. 
It all started with a small display of photos and grown ever since. It is also a project that will improve my writing so I can use it on a eventula photo book. The idea I have is try to tie the photos to writing a little more, perhaps add a short novel in to it, mixed in its content. The idea is a bit cool and hopefully novel. But before I start with it, there are loads of subjects to photograph, less generic and more in detail, still avoiding to keep it tied to a period, this will be harder, especially in the cities. If you want to see the site as it is, have a go...  ...or click on the link "Norway" right in the bottom of this site. I am thinking of making a short trip to Stockholm aswell, perhaps in 2 weeks. There is an island right down in downtown which is a huge park and a walk around it takes a 10 kilometers and there are alot's to see. One main goal is a area around a closed or atleast semi closed ship yard of beckholmen and the water front around it, with its sheds any various state of decay, I was shooting it a couple of years a go but I had camera problems so the result was not OK, and I have been planning on reshooting all this since that. Stockholm is now adays a bit of nostalgia for me, though much has been changed, altered and gone for ever though some bits remain. it will be fun, but before that and the trip to Bergen, I need to fix my cars head lights, which is not as a easy task as it seems. I guess it is one of the downsides of having a compact car as the space under the hood is really compact I can not reach the stuff there so I need to follow the instructions and take the car to a garage, that is a bad solution don't you think, you people at Mercedes-Benz?. Untill next time! 2009-09-22. Fall...The fall is here, definitely here, the air is cooler and the sun is getting up later and later each day, and goes below the horizon in a hurry. The leaves are turning in to yellow, orange or even vivid red or purple before theydangle down to the ground in the wind. In short the fall IS here.During this period I have been working out, still at the same gym, doing pretty much the same work out but added on some weight on the sets. I am getting stronger and stronger. I managed to leg press 300 kilos before I busted my knees. and right now i am on the road to recover. Today I will try to do my leg bit, but with some 50 percent of the weight I use to have. But I am quite confident, I am to recover back and get even more stronger. There is a swine flu going on, I got a flu 2 weeks ago and it messed me up my tummy to the point I needed to be somee 2 hours a day in the toilet. But then again I managed to read a few books in the progress, so it was not entirely too bad. Summer was a bummer with allmost daily rain and cold weather. Atleast twice we were close have a flooding, but managed to stay dry, yet there was a million of mosquitos, everywhere, all dying to meet you.. But it has faded away to fall, and soon it is the figh light of the colors here in the valley, by the lake. I was last Saturday on a photo excursion to shoot the vivid colors of cold at the mountians around the town of Röros in Norway. the town is located on a plateu in the high lands and the landscape reminds a lot of Northern parts of Scandinavia with high plains and few high mountains dotted here and there. Few rivers and lakes rounds it up, it is pretty hostile country in the winters, I would not like to get stuck there... I got some great shots in Saturday but as I look out at the windy out doors, I realize I was happy as I bet the wind would have made a short process on those leaves and turn the trees in to much more sterile state. here in the valley I bet the hight light is some 10-14 days ahead. How long we are to have it is depending on the wind and if we are to have frost in the nights, But mstlikely a few days, maybe a week before the nature prepares for the very first snow. which I guess is not that far off, just a 3 or more weeks away... Untill next time! 2009-06-05. Graduation days...Another lot of 9. graders are graduating, taking their next step in life. The class they have been part of is now a history, soon a fading memory, gone. Some of the kids will not see each others again, untill class reunions every 10 or so years. In those ten years life will taken new turns by then. Today they are 15-16 year olds, vagually knowing of the future. Perhaps not having much of plans for the future. At the future class reunion they will be friends but still strangers as they are by then adults, well sort of,some with kids. hopefully jobs or having a university or high school underway. They will change alot. The world is changed a lot too...Our school has a tradition to send a group of kids to the remains of the consentration camp in Auschwitz for a few days along with teachers and few parents. They plan arrange and finace the trip during their last year at school and spend a few days and I guess the abstract history book becomes alive as they get to see the cruel nature of us humans. It is very noticeable how they have reacted on the trip. Their life has been shooked up, but they are to keep the history alive for those who has not seen it for their generation and their future kids. After all, the generation of the survivors are getting more and more few and decade or two they may have be all gone. But these trips keep the history alive and they have a mission to teach and understand all the horrible things that happened in the madness that was the WW II.  Photo from Auswitch taken by the students from our school last year. More info in Swedish www.toleransprojekt.se When I was kid, the friends and me played a version of cowboys and indians, we played a combat in WW II with wood made crude machine guns, even with surplus army helmets and few such items. It was fun and very much harmless... we built some of the air craft from 1/72 plastic kits, Spitfires, Mustangs, Messersmiths, Focke-WQulfs, B25 Mitchells, Stukas, Mosquitos... Some of theolder one were bombed with fire crackers... We was lured by the exitement of it, the romantic bit of it. I guess boys will be allway boys... Many years later, when I finished junior high school in 1979, my parents insisted to buy a graduation ring, so after the graduaion we went to a jewelry store in the city, in Stockholm. It was a small store in the backstreets in down town, run by an elderly man with short sleeves. As he displayed the rings I saw a small tattoo in his arm and knew exactly what it was... A series of numbers, he was a "lucky" survivor... I have no idea the horrows he had seen, I have no idea of the nightmares he had seen at night every night since then. For me the history did come alive, yet a bit less dramtic way as for the our soon to be graduating ninth graders.. Though he did not speak a word of his past, wished me good luck in life. But he made me intersted in history as history is the answer to many questions in our world today. Have we learned anything from the past? We did... some but not all of it. As they are still people tortured, prisoned and killed today because of their orgins, political belives or religion. Still 54 years after the holocost, there are a few things we still need to learn.... Untill next time! 2009-03-26. Thursday ramblings...I have been at home for a few days, back problems. As usual I twisted it in my sleep and woke up at 0200 and said myself that will hurt when I wake up, it did!!! Things did not fare well by the fact that it was a very cold night for the time of year, well below minus 10, did not make it better. But I am back at work, my back hurts still but in this time of year. Besides I want to to the gym, so that set sit. I am well...Over here and I guess everywhere elese there are scandals from various tip executives who are getting huge bonuses from insurance companies and especially those who haldes retirement fonds. Their customers are loosing money while the top guys are getting extra, not a few bucks, more like in neighbourhood of a few millions. Their excuse is that this is a market demand and that is it. I say it is bullshit.... I think that we as customers in these institutes should transfer OUR money somewhere else, with better ethics and who are willing to give us better service. If you ask me what to do with these V.I.P.s is pretty season. We got a hunting season for moose in October... Place them in the woods wearing Moose outfit and I guess that will solve the problem for once and all. It is amaizing how people seem to loose the sence of reality as with the case of top executives. How undisposal these people have become. I read about one guy who was at the helm over one of the banks in USA which went out of business, he was flown in helicopter each day to his office. what I learn from life is that these people are replaceable as everyone else of us.Or they are defending themselves on TV, if they were not given huge benefits and a shit load of cash some other firm would hire them. I guess the free enterprising ahs gone sane, who would hire someone with a millions in bonuses who can not run their companies? Here in Sweden, the big thing is the tradse union top name, unnamed here, has first critizing huge bonuses and got caught for giving record breaking bonuses to her fellow members of tha boards. Her excuse was she did not read the documents.... WTF is she doing there? a dummy just raising money for nothing? Yesterday she regretted and was upset, and by her press people she is reducing her presence in the boards as she has been in 26 boards and will be in 4 in the future..... Kind of strange as many she represents are unemployed and she had 26+ jobs. It is appearent that some people does have the drive to reach the top fo just wanting to be a very important person. One question does remain, who the hell was she representing anyway? Untill next time! 2009-03-13. Friday the 13..Spooky huh? How many of you are extra careful today? Avoiding walk under the ladders turn off the street before that black cat crosses it? etc.... I guess there are a few, but after all it is another Friday and it is an afternoon... Sweet!!! Got about one hour to kill before heading out. The plan is to dash to the city and browse for some mags before heading to the gym. I know it is a rather extravigant way to get a few mgas and I ought to get it in other way but it is cool to head out and I don't want to prescribe, as I guess all the issues would be that exiting and it is coll to a short trip out of town.I have been hanging out at Facebook alot lately and met a more than a few new friends, or "friends". As the chat ox is small an in many ways inpersonal it is easy to communicate with people. But then again it is not by far as fun as meeting people face 2 face. This means I guess people are more flirty, as I am, ready to broaden out their fantsies, I may do that or just fooling around or looking for a new partner.... Just thinking, how would it be to meet someone live, you met on line. Will the few images come alive or would you feel just incomfortable. Would those bits you created in your head to fill the blanks not meet the reality? I know that there are a few who have met their princes/princesses on line and living like in fairy tales happily to the ever after, but thought of it is a bit strange? Are we just killing time at work or at home when those 56 channels on TV just suck as usual? Or is this an alternative to clubs, bars or whatever you go to look for someone. Are we this desperate. Many who I have chatted with are in cross roads, womwn, who is to break up or broken up from a marriage or a relationship. In most cases they have a couple kids and very lonely. I guess it is as about the same with us guys... At the same time clubs and bars have become not a joint you have a good time, more like a place you show off, a cold place with stupid games. Guys hang around in the bars while the chics on the dance flor, back in the old days it was more mixed and picking up someone a lot easier. Untill next time! 2009-03-12. Fuelhogs and Dinosaurs.The car industry is in deep trouble in USA, and this affects things here in Europe aswell. Many of the brands here in Europe are wholly or to some degrees owned by the huge companies located in Detroit, rock city. Three giant dinosaurs who has lived on borrowed time, unwilling with the allied, the oil industry to make any changes needed to cope with the new reality. Oil is not to last forever, the fact everybody have known in decades, the exhausts of the cars is an hazard to the enviroment, another fact known by everybody in decades, but still like some holy cow the car industry in USA have done nothing else selling fuel hogs. when the public started to look for new ideas and better qualities, they looked the other way. And as the number of sleek European and Japanese cars sold, the dealers of GM, Ford and Chryslers had stock of cars that were harder to sell. To gain new technology GM bought the SAAB, Ford went for Volvo. Volvo sold cars and made profit, SAAB as a smaller company did not, but have had a good reputation of devedloping new ideas in enginering. Bought were sold by the Swedish share holders to the dinosaurs. The both companies or at least brand names would live on..This not the only industry in deep trouble. Bnks are one of them and for me as a tax payer t is frustrating to see these princes and princesses of the never failing free enterpricing asking for tax payers money in those pockets where the money is pouring out. I think that it is OK for goverments to hand out the money, as long we get something in return, as stocks to become a share holder untill the companies can bail the goverment out. Our money is not to be a social wellfare for ill managed companies where the board of VIP.s hand over to each other staggering bonuses.... It is I guess for them as nessecary perhaps dump the 80 plus ft yaght and the estate in a more sunnier regions and down size the economics, like the rest of us!!!! Shame on you! Untill next time! 2009-02-12. Cold.At work, had a long day yesterday and someone had the idea of placing a hockey game on a Wednesday, which is usually my day off from gym. But as my plans have changed for the Friday night it turned to be OK. The home town team won the game after a sudden death and slavaged two valuable points for the play of or the qualification to the major team. The team had a 4 -1 lead but after the fourth goal in the third period, they relaxed and as the game is a full of 60 minutes insted of 43 minutes, the visitors made 4 goals pretty fast... and all in the sudden the 4 - 1 lead was gone and the visitors was leading 5 - 4... But in the end the guys made the fifth goal and on penalty shots the team scored the winning goal two points were saved, but they lost one. If they would have kept focused, they would have had comfortable win with 3 points...Enough hockey!, but the phenomia of sports is amaizing as you do get involved in it. Besides as I have been around the team for a decade, things do get personal. I know that the successes and the flops do not change my everyday life, but it is something that I guess unites people. after all this is a small town in not so densed populated areas. And though most of players in the team are not locals, the team is. Last year I was thinking of quitting if they stayed in the major league, but as they failed to stay there i felt, I would help out as much to keep a little effort to regain the position of being a major league team. Over here it is too damned cold. Had 30 minus C this morning and I really hate it, I am counting the days to the spring sun and the sound of the running water in the brooks and seeing all that snow melt.... But as it seems it will be a awhile before that happens. The winter is holding a strong grip on us here, but I am counting the days. But I am busy enough to keep spirit up. Restarted to work out last week and though I have lost lot of mountain and strength it is nice to be back there and sweat it all out. Tomorrow night I will be seeing through a camera lence Hammerfall live and that is honour to do that, not just because Hammerfall is a major band but becaause the lead singer Joacim Cans has been doing alot for good stuff for my hometown and the team it is nice to do something back! We had last year on one of the TV channels a show where a number of choirs were competing agianst each other and his my hometown based one were the winners. Second, he is involved of getting a a youth house for bands etc here and he has been involved with the hockey team, and finally he is the master mind behind the Monsters of Mora, which is the largest indoor festival in the country! A really cool guy! By the way I have a selection of most bands, except for Blaze Bailey, who I was video taping his show for him.... Untill next time! 2009-02-06. Another Friday further....I might repeat myself but Fridays are cool. I love them, no matter what kind of weather, nothing can beat it. FRIDAY, is the best day in a week... The diabetes is still giving me trouble, and it has done that for four weeks now and I still to wear glasses to able to see anything else than blurry figures. No matter if they are close or in distance they stay blurry.I guess that this is why I felt and still feel a bit sea sick. My world looks distorted now and while playing a guitar it becomes very obvious, whatever is level turns in to a slight but visible arch...Though being still ill, I was at gym last night and did a slight work out. I fulfiled my routine there but on lesser weights. I missed that in these weeks and I did good and it was a nice feeling when I got home. Besides my sugar levels went down, obviously it makes wonder s too. I am taking it a bit slow with the gym, but later part of the next week I will be doing it more seroiusly. Though the weights are use are lighter than I usually do... My plan is to bench press 125 kilos in a year, as next year I will turn 50. My dad did 110 by that age so I want to a little better... I have no plans for the weekend, as the weather is inpproved, I will take some time to spend it out doors, haven't done much of photography lately so I guess Iw ill be taking my camera along. I love the idea of that the spring is about to comeunder way. It sure beats late winter anyday.... Untill next time! 2009-02-01. Freezing cold again....Another Monday, and it has been freezing cold since the weekend. But it is sunny and and bright. This morning when I arrived to work the sun was about to rise, isn't that a sign? Finally we are to beat this winter and face to the spring. Just a few weeks away. Those who love winter doesn't have any complaints, it is cold and a plenty of snow so I guess they are happy. So is the lumber industry as thanks to the frozen surface, they got an easy time to haoul timber to the mills. Over here there are a few saw mills running, huge mothers which are allways hungry for more timber.Weekend was nice, quiet and as it was that cold I did not spend too much time out doors. I did take off to browse for a new car stereo with an USB and playable on MP3.s. SUch convinient way to play music in a car. Just stick in your memory stick and no hustle with CD.s or cassettes and now as there are more and more capacity in them there are trouble to have some 1000 or song tunes in them. Cool huh? Instead of that, I came home with a couple of DVD.s of movies. I located a double DVD with both Waynes World flicks, .....exellent!!! Still though it is a bit goofy acting, it is most entertaining I guess those flicks are some 20 or so years old. Much have cahnged, but much is the same. Still love them.... Was at lunch and noticed though it was freezing cold,the sun was catually melting some snow in to icecles, in other words the spring IS underway. More it is nice to see the preparations for the Wasa Ski run is well under way. The huge tent that houses a pavilion for the ski run, exebitions from their sponors and a big dining room/club for the entertainment is no being ercted and it is amaizing how much thi svenue still grows. For some 10 or so days my hometown turns a large ski resort, housing more than some 70 000 people, not bad for a town with some 20 000 souls..... Untill next time! 2009-01-30. Friday!!!!Friday, just about to finish my first week at work after getting ill. Besides my eyes I am recovering, thank you and hopefully at gym on Monday after three loooong weeks. My eyes are in bad shape as my vision is pretty dim and I need to have pretty strong glasses to see something pretty sharp. They make me a little sea sick and I feel a little sick but I can live with it. Right now life is cool, bills are paid, it is Friday afternoon and I am in the shade. Bad thing is the fact it is pretty cold, minus 14 degress C.I am planning to have a few days off in the end of February, partly because I need a little to recover from the illness and concentrate to get my training or if you wish work out working and ti visit a market in Röros in Norway wich I ahve had plans to visit last few years but never done it and there is not much of kids here anyway and to get here as many of the streets are closed during that time is a mess. At least I got something to look forward too.. This Weekend, not much of plans, will be having a long walk tomorrow, unless the weather is uncooperative. Love the fact we are getting closer to spring. HAving more day light makes a world of difference and I love spring. Much because the nature comes alive again and each week you will see the difference. HAven't made any plans for the summer though ad the current state of economy crises workldwide seems to affect the communites and there is a huge risk that I will be without a job in this summer so I have to be prepared to the worst. Every morning in the news is about another another firm firing people, not just a few, in houndreds. even China whose economy has been sound, has something like a whopping 10 million people out of jobs... So I guess 2008 will be a tough year. Untill next time! 2009-01-27. Tuesday ramblingsTuesday, funny but it feels a world better than a Monday. It is over cast out, just below zero degrees C and we got great piles of snow. Within few weeks we are to have the annual Wasa Ski run and the adjoining festival, so I guess they are very peased of the extra snow. For me it is OK and if my eyes permits I sneak out with the camera. It will be cool. The plan is to take out to the border or more inland. As you noticed, nothing specific yet. But in the end of next month I try to get to Röros in Norway to take photos of the annual market.I am starting to thinking of my trips to Norway. This time I am having a new car that will cut the fues economy quite a bit and I am looking for new routes along the same usual area. Norway is beautiful and the scenery is ever changable in various weather conditions so that will be very cool.I will I guess sleep in the same camping site at tpown of Otta as the strolling in the town is very nice. It is nice to have a base which a bit like home. Besides the cabins at the camping site are very neat and spacious enough. Besides the new car, I will bring along a small laptop to store the photos and hopefully I get my Norway Norway site updated. It has been lagging behind a bit but I promise I will get it in shape. What I am planning to do is rewamp it a bit so it will be a sort of guide on web from town to town, still loaded with my own commentaries and photos. Lately on my trips there I have been around Sognefjord and there are lot of great views and stories to tell. Untill next time! 2009-01-26. Another MondayAfter being sick for two and half weeks it was a bit unreal to go back to work. My eye sight is in a mess- I need pretty strong glasses to be able to see anything else some blurry figures moving around. Fortunally they make me see well enough so I can drive safely to and back from work. But still I get tired easily and more often than I want to. We have received a shit load of snow, some I guess half a meter and it looks pretty, like a Christmas card setting. Perhaps if the condiyions are right I cruise off with the car to shoot a few photos from the wonder, as in a few weeks, I hoipe, winter this time willbe a memory. Though March is a mud season, ther fift season as it was named in a magazine. With its increased day light and warmer temperature it sure beats winter.It will be interesting how Barack Obama at helm will be able to turn the stream off the on coming depression away and get's us to the safer waters. I am not making a joke on him as if I was an american citizen, I would without any doubt voted for him. But it is kind of corny that the future of the world we see it is in hands of one single man. WE other nations do have our own leadres and goverments, but we seem to be helplessly depending on this one person in a country far away. Does that sound like democracy to you? and how in hell did we let that thing happen again. Here in Europe we have tried that before with Hitler, Stalin and all rgose names thar have darkened our hustory. Did not to end work out that well then either... Now I am not comparing the president Obama with those monsters, though I think the former president should be put on trial for war crime. But having a system where everyone are depending of ONE person is a road yet for another failure. I guess the big time Wall Streat way of thinking of the world has received a severe blow, money money and more money. Somehow all that money needs to be prodiced ans as we here in west are spending money which we didn't have, it was just a matter of time when it was to come down and it did. we had a crises 10 or so years ago. But soon the lessons learned was once again forgotten. It was not a supricem we were living for the day, not for the future. After all it is a scary thought that the well being off all us have been like a bet at the bookers. Well the price of wheat increase with 10 per cent untill May, what is the price tag on gallong on gasoline at the endo the year. Will this company make a profit this year? Will there be a peace in Kashmir in 2009 and how would a conflict affect the price on fuel in the future. The stajes are high, not just your economy, your kids future are on stake. But thousends of jobs, future of towns and cutues depending on one huge plants abilities of giving jobs and tax income. Sick, huh? You bet! While at it, the suits in corporate board rooms benefit themselves with huge raises on their huge incoms and take off for a game of golf somewhere. If it happens to be raining that day, book the companies private jet to sunny coast so these dudes can have their game. Some swedish politician said once before an election that whatever is good for the companies is good for the country. But that is not entirely correct as it whatever is good for the vompany is good for their share holders. Looking at the result where some 10 million people in China has lost their jobs this winter, and some 2.5 million americans has done it too. It ie rather evident that my modification of that statement is ringing more true. Does that piss you off? It does piss me off... what are the alternatives now as the market economy gas has a severe blow? Communism? Don't think so, as it lacks momentum, a feodal system where the big corporation is the center and provides everything from the craddle to grave? Don't think so as what happens where that company shuts down and once again streamline itself and everything you know is flushed down the drain. Perhaps we need to restart everything as the big corporation thinking has become like dinosaurs, to slow to make a progress, too bulky to move on..... Once again the history repeats utself, nothing we have created lasts forever... So I don't have an answer, not a clue.... But I know, whatever system we may have or call it, it is based on one thing only, greed.... greed for money or greed for power. Untill next time! 2009-01-15. Well...?Guess who is freezing? It is cold again down to minus 13 and I got a sore throat. No folks, I haven't been doing Karaoke after a pint or two of malt whiskey and try to reproduce the unique voice of Rod Stewart. It seems like I am on a some kind of ride between some illnesses. and I guess I will be excpecting fever again, had it a week ago....I was out a bit and took a few photos of sun down over the river with a few farms on the foreground, the river and a few bluffs, will look good I hope. But still I am suffering from dizziness and head ache, and getting pretty bored with it. I even skipped the hockey yesterday.. Well Mora did win anyway! By the way I went to emergency last Tuesday and as I expected my diabetes was off the scale out of controll and I had to sta the night there. Obviously some dane tourists have had a vision that seeing pros doing downhill on Eurosport that they were to do the same stunt. Ambulances where coming and going. I looked a lot like action on a TV-shows for real. I was cool, and I was transfered to the medics over the night pretty fast and they poured half a pharmacy in me or gave me insuline shots every now and then. I shared a room with an elderly fellow who was recovering from stroke. Along him was his wife who stayed the night and day at the hospital nursing and helping him out. If anything that was a act of love and affection, so rare these days. Despite his bad luck, he seemed to recover pretty fast and should be lucky enough to have a companion in his life like that. Remember, I had to stay one night, he had a least 4 or 5 weeks to go.... That sets prespectives in life doesn't it? No matter the junk we buy with all these credit cards, they can not offer us the comfort in life we really need and unfortually forget, love and affection.... In all it ao so damn easy to forget the good in life, and ride on hardships. The staff was very nice, unlike the hospitals I stayed in Stockholm after recovering from knee operations. Here once again I did feel like I was a sort of a thing that needed to be fixed beföre shipping it away and make place for another broken thing... In all, I was well taken care off and everyone though they did have lot of work were very friendly and personal. But then again it was nice to go home yesterday and sleep it off. I have a hard time to sleep somewhere elese than home.... Untill next time! 2009-01-12. Being sickI am sick again, I got diabetes and seems that this time of year I get pretty sick from it. This time it started as a a catch of fever after a period of severe cold weather, which is over but after the temperature in my body cam back to normal I feel very dizzy, felt sick and have had a hard time not to get sick after a meal. In other words I am not too happy with this. If i am still feeling sick tomorrow, I cruise down to the emergency and have things checked out. I am usually filled with energy but I am so tired, comnstantly tired or having a head ache. It sucks!I did put a little effort today as I was tired of being stuck indoors, and got rid of all those Christmas decorations. No i did not dump them in a dumpster, but as usual placed then in the attic. It took all day, though they are plenty, I had to work out slow not to faint or anything. Clearing all this junk away is great though, as now as the holidays are over I can face to spring. Which is after all just some eight or so weeks away. I love springs as it is a time of hope and the and it is great to see the progress of the srping which is hard to miss. Every week there are new sounds from birds (real birds, with wings...) returning from the sunny south greeting us with new sounds, which are eaily forgotten after a long fall and winter. The daylight hours increases too, making afternoons more pleasentful to stay out doors. It is hard to not love this season, well I am not allergic. The reason I am thinking of this aswe are in mid winter the darkest part is past and right now here where I live we have som 30 minutes extra day light compared to Christmas, which is just a few weeks away. Today it was a windy day, pretty warm for the season, PLUS 7 degrees C!!!, though being sick it felt allmost like spring was allready here. But all that melting snow turned the garden paths in to ice and it is quite slippery. Besides all that I got my car washed in a car wash. I have had my new car for a moth and I ant it look a bit decent for a while. But I don't know if it is the shape of tha car or the automatic washing, it did not quite come out clean. Next time, when I am in better shape, I rather hand wash it... Untill next time! 2009-01-04. ChangesChanges, right? They do happen and sometimes when you like them sometimes when they are forced upon you. Sometimes for the good, sometimes for the worse. But as the time flies by they does happen. You think you may not change, but the world around you does and all those changes do rub you on, though you may not notice it. For the better or for the worse. Changes can not be stopped, not even after we are dead and gone. If you are a controll freak, this might be sad but true.You might be like me be a person ho make resolutions at the New Year? I do that and now adays I keep them reachable. The last years was going to gym and I have done that and still do it regulary. This year is make some neccessary changes in my life. Well what it is a secret but will make a huge change in my life, I guess. But I am not certain of it but I hope it brings a little spark in my life which I think have been lost the last few years. But the new year has started and let's hope I will be able to carry it out. I had a dream the other night that I was at work a few years from now and covered in web. I paniced and woke up. All this make me think of making changes. I love live where I do but I need a new spark in my life. Perhaps it has to do being single but looking a round some of my friends who are still couples, they seem to lost that and might have to come up with changes to get whatever it is back. Untill next time! |